Ashlyn Cazalet

2010-12-14T20:25:00.000-08:00

Can someone please tell me why I should bother anymore? I have been be very very good friend to someone, to someone I should probably have closed the book on along time ago, and how am I repaid by being pushed aside and ignored. Great! I am getting so sick of being used. it happens to me again and again. I am such a great friend to this person and I am repaid by being ignored, yeah well fuck you! I realize now that this person only comes around when he needs a shoulder to cry on, but heaven forbid he ever invite me to join the fun. I am very tired of being used, ignored and left behind. I am actually a very fun person and extremely loyal and a great friend! So dammit if you would rather spend your time brooding over the bitch that dicked you over and spend time with people you laugh at and claim are stupid, rather than the person who stood by you through tons and I mean tons, and even let you walk back in after you walked away and crushed me, then go ahead! But DONT expect me to make time for you anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

old pains and a new friend

2010-12-11T23:22:00.000-08:00

Its funny how some hurts don't go away and some deceptions never stop biting no matter hown far you get from them. I am in a very strange situation. One I promised I would not put myself in. I find myself thinking I should make a rough decision to take someone out of my life. Its funny, some people you don't know if its harder to keep them or push them away.

Well at least the day wasn't a complete waste I got to end it dancing with Dr. House

Thank you Lor, you are turning out to be a wonderful friend, you came in when I needed you most, I hope I am there half you at least half as much as you are for me

Introducing Mewmew

2010-12-08T09:33:00.000-08:00

was playing around with the username feature and didn't realize you could only change it once a week. So until december 14th i will be MewMew

So who is Mewmew you ask? Well she is a sweet little glamour kitty, that can go feral in a heartbeat. So I guess this week I am going to run around dressed as a cat and going to only neko places.

2010-12-06T19:33:00.000-08:00

Just want to make a big shout out to my friend Fallon Maertens for the pics she did of me, thanks girl

I am back!!!

2010-11-29T16:42:00.000-08:00

After 2 and half months of hell I have finally returned to secondlife. I am unfortunately homeless and not a clue what I am going to do with my sl life. But I am a hobo with style and no matter what I decide to do I will do it with gusto. So watch out folks I am back

Kaaos effect part 2

2010-08-16T06:07:00.001-07:00

I fell into 15000 AD on a space station that was too close to the sun and was burning up fast, and to top it off a scan showed that this was were one of the missing pieces was I had to find it and find it quick before I and it went burned up with the sun. Luckily I found it quickly and pushed in some sort of coordinates was outy.

I dropped to the floor of were I landed in exhaustion. I had no clue where I was all I knew was I needed to rest. I am not sure how long I laid on the floor. When I finally felt myself cool down and my energy return, I sat up. I now needed to do two things, a) fix the found piece of the teleporter, and b) contact the help desk, if only I had a way to connect the device to a phone. That's when I saw it. I was in an old call center. This was perfect, and to top it all off I use to work in one of these places. This was going to be a snap. I was very quickly connected to the idiot Sid. Oh and you won't believe this, he had the nerve to actually call me an idiot, and I yelled back your the one that screwed everything up and your the one with the coordinates! He then just stammered something and gave me new coordinates

Well guess what, yep you guessed it wrong place again. This time I ended up in the future. Someones apartment to be exact. Now I know its wrong to others food and what not, but damn it I was tired, hungry and dirty. I needed a break. So I kind of helped myself. I am very lucky that they never showed up. I took my time enjoying future food, and even took a shower and had a nap. Once I was rested I called asshole, to tell him he messed up again. He didn't take it well, but sent me new coordinates. But with this new piece fixed I could easily call the help desk or anyone else. So things should be easier, so I thought.

I was so wrong about easier. Although now I could call the idiot easily and tell him what an idiot he was. Oh and you will never guess where I ended up. I found myself in on a 1930's German u-boat and someone was headed straight to my direction. Not knowing German or even how to explain what an American from the future would be doing there I hit a few buttons and left.
I was in such a hurry to get out of there that on my next landing, I landed with a crash. I crashed right into the Chinese Tang Dynasty and just happened to ruin the Diamond Sutra, the earliest known book. I had better fix it and fix it fast. I immediately went to work fixing it. Now I could be wrong, but if I remember correctly it goes like this:
Thus should one view all of the fleeting world – a drop of dew, a bubble in a stream, a flash of lightning in a summer cloud, a star at dawn, a phantom, and a dream.
Well if not, it does now.

This easy "two hour job at the most" has turned into a whole day fiasco. I again called him for new coordinates. Thinking nothing could be any worse I hit the button and ended up right in the middle of the ice age! But guess what the missing piece was here. I had to find it quick for I met the dinosaurs fate.

Not having anytime to make the right coordinates or fix it I hit a button and ended up in jungle next a beautifully warm fire. I am not sure what was wrong with me but I could have sworn I saw a snake in the fire. But now the teleporter was completely fixed and I could go straight to the help office.

As it turns out the Owners of the agency were very impressed with my work, despite what Sid told them. Oh yes, he tired to throw me under the bus, blaming me for everything. But they saw right through. And now I have a full time time travel job. So watch out world you will never know were you will find me next.

Kaaos effect part 1

2010-08-15T09:46:00.000-07:00

Well it hasn't taken me long to find something to do with my new sl life, I was quickly offered a job, to help recover pieces to a time travel device, for the Temporal sightseeing destinations company. (this is actually a cool new game called kaaos effect, look it up) A Sid Mallock would be helping me, so I began my journey. I first ended up in a snazzy 1930's office. The place was scanned and no missing pieces, so I must have been sent the wrong coordinates, that damn Sid, this was my first indication of idiocy, Damn it! Being a nosy person I couldn't help but looking around a bit that's when I found a letter and picture that stunned me.

The picture was of none other than my great grandmother. She had been a publisher and had published a book about time travel that was my time favorite. Then reading the letter I couldn't believe what I was reading.

The book she was talking about is the book that sparked my love of adventure and time travel and the book that owners of the travel agency used as a guideline to creating there agency. But I had no time to dwell on the matters, I had a mission and I had to complete as soon as possible. I re-keyed the coordinates and prayed that this time I would be in the right place.

I then found myself in the 70's, also not the right coordinates, and then to a some dark room. This was getting ridiculous. Can't this Sid guy anything right.

Thinking nothing else could go wrong, I ended up in the year 1900 and something just didn't seem right. I was at a telegraph office and that's when I realized it I was about to seeing a horrible train crash was about to happen I know its not good to get involved with history but I couldn't help myself. I quickly sent out an SOS and was able to stop the trains, they stopped just in time and the calamity was avoided

and with that was thrusted in the year 5 billion A.D.

new life and new directions

2010-08-10T23:00:00.000-07:00

The one thing you can be sure of with sl, is that nothing ever, ever stays the same, and no matter what eventually the time will come when you find your sl life to seem to explode and the need to change everything.

That time has come and gone for me. I changed a lot then realized that I just needed time away from sl. That was one of the best decisions I made. But I have come back and this time with the determination to live sl on my terms and my ways.

The last time I left and came back I came back with all kinds of rules to live by. Well I guess it is no shock I ended breaking every single one of them. They were good rules but that is the thing about rules, by making it a rule you almost assuredly break them. I guess I could make a bunch of new rules and call them guidelines, but I would probably just break them too. So what to do?

Honestly I guess there is only one thing and that is to thine self be true. Stay true to your heart and soul and listen to that little inner voice. If there is one thing I can say, if I had followed my inner voice instead of the chippings around me I would not have done have the dumb things I did.

I did finally listen that inner voice and changed alot about both my real and secondlife. Now that I have finally purged the drama and negative people from my life and as my real life is taking massively better turn. I can to look to the horizon of unknown not with fear but with happiness. I don't have a clue as to what I will be doing with my new sl life but I do know it will be on my terms and my way for once.

Our new home!!!

2010-03-09T23:57:00.000-08:00

Happy Days! my friend Zion built my Gigi a beautiful art Deco home and we have very recently bought some land. The land is awesome!!! It even came with a haunted treehouse and a view of a waterfall. I absolutely love it!

♥Gigi Rasteridge♥

2010-03-04T00:57:00.000-08:00

the amazing and wonderful Gigi. What can I say words do describe how wonderful you are. Just being wiith you makes me so happy. Heart and soul I have fallen helpless into you. May I always hear you laugh, and sing the year of the cat.

2010-02-25T00:42:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to give a shout out to my wonderful friend MasterZionthe Mighty for making me this new profile pic

Thank you so much Zion your rawk!!!

Sam I am sorry

2010-01-27T00:05:00.000-08:00

Sam I am very very sorry I hurt you. It was never ever what I wanted to do. You where a wonderful person an amazing friend to me. But instead of giving you the respect and love I should have and that you deserved, I stomped on you like you were nothing. I know that I can never hope to regain our friendship but, please know that I do care, I do miss you and I wish greatly that I had acted differently. I am so happy that you are well and happy now. You deserve that more than anyone I know. Please take care Sam.

Happy 2010

2010-01-02T10:14:00.000-08:00

Happy 2010!!!!!

well its a new year, the old one is gone and I am very glad for that. I have lots of dreams hopes and resolutions for the new year. My biggest one is to have fun.

I have learned a lot this past years these include:
1. trust your instincts!!! if something doesn't feel right, it probably isn't.

2. secondlife is fun, but real life is more important, and don't make your secondlife your first life-doing that will slowly kill you.

3. if your not happy or having to fight for their attention, move on, no matter how much you think it hurts or that miss them, move and find the life and love you really deserve and want.

4. if a person stabs you in the back once, its good to forgive but keeping them in your life, is a very bad idea, and definitely don't add them to your life. They did it once they will do it again!!! They are scum and skank and they don't deserve your thought energy or time.

5. sl is for having fun and doing what you can't do in your real life! So make the most of it, and don't waste a second of it on dump drama, crappy people, or whining about what someone has done to you. Pick yourself find others to hang out with and have fun!!!!

Now as for my resolutions

1. have fun! have fun! have fun!

2. don't waste a second! Only boring people get bored. So even if your stuck in some rp or alone, do something, clean out your inventory, read, surf, chat, or dream. So unless you have done and accomplished everything in life you want to there is no reason to be bored.

3. clean out my inventory! yes we are all probably saying that one.

4. Meet new people!

5. Experience everything in secondlife that I can.

So everyone have a great year!!!

awesome new key

2009-12-21T04:30:00.000-08:00

ok I have been really wanting to do the whole dolly, dollification thing for a long time. I just recently got RLV on my viewer and then I went out and got rlv dolly key. This key is awesome! It can totally let others control you, I love it!! It can blind you, prevent you from tping, iming and so much more, I can't wait to really break it in

Well I did a dumb thing and didn't read the directions before putting it on. Apparently you need to make sure some you trust is around when you put it on because it starts you off unwound. So there I was stuck bent over and I couldn't even remove it because of the rlv! I love it it was great. Phoenix had to come back and wind me up. I can't wait to really use it.

the key if you want one, is made made by kismet

getting back to my blogs and travels

2009-12-15T21:57:00.000-08:00

spent the day getting back to my blog and trying to reacquaint myself back to gor. I swear when you leave sl for awhile, coming back feels like starting over. For anyone wanting to start in gor this is a good place to start, and if you want to check out my review click here:)

http://goreantravels.blogspot.com/

Dark littlethings Party

2009-12-14T10:52:00.000-08:00

Thanks for inviting to your housewarming party Dark, it was great!!

coming back to gor

2009-12-12T22:03:00.000-08:00

well I have decided to return to Gor. I even have a new Mistress, an old friend, Fine Razor. This is actually more of a protection collar. I needed a collar that I would not be pressured in, and could walk out of if need be, and won't I wouldn't really be expected to show up, as my real life seems kind of crazy these days. For all you 7 seas fishers out there the city of Laura is having fishing and they do have special prizes.

You know I am really excited about coming back to Gor. I am looking forward to have real rp on my own terms and can't wait to get into. I think I am going to do the whole gorean travels thing again, I guess be the traveling kajira. So see you in Gor

Love, sex and SL

2009-12-02T22:09:00.000-08:00

well things don't seem to take long to change in sl. A couple months ago I would have never imagined myself with anyone but Trent. Now I can't imagine it with him. I must say I am having lots of fun these days in sl. Where I do very much consider myself a subbie I am by no means a doormat. I have learned alot the last two years and now plan to handle my sl life very differently. I have some very strict rules I plan to follow for myself

1. Real life, especially real relationships come first
2. Be true and honest with yourself and others, no mind games and dishonesty
3. Treat others how you want to be treated, always keep others feelings in consideration-no mind games
4. always choose friends over love interests!!!
5. if you find them lying, cheating or keeping secrets, move on they are not worth it!
6. don't do anything with a persons, partner, boyfriend or girlfriend unless you know they are ok with it and know about it.
7. if you have to fight for there love, attention, affection, etc they are not that into you and thus not worth it, move on
8. don't take a restirction unless you know the other person is going to be faithful too!
9.Don't do the poly thing with anyone you have real romantic feelings for
10. Only do the poly thing with people you like and can get along with, and share the action with. None of this one person gets all the action while everyone else waits there turn.
11. Fix it or get out!!!
12. The most important rule of them all..... SL is about having fun, and your tears are not worth any SL relationship. If you find yourself upset, or it messing with your real life, end it and move on!

first day in Sl

2009-11-22T17:58:00.000-08:00

well my first day back in SL and I somehow managed to start a vampire feud. I guess I am talented. Well now that I am back I am not really sure what I am going to be doing now that I am back. I am thinking about doing the vampire thing or the dolly thing. I really do miss wearing a collar, but who knows. I am actually very excited to see where things take me.

Changes

2009-11-19T11:03:00.000-08:00

well many things have changed in my life. I am no longer with Trenton. He was a major part of my life for 2 years so that change was rough. But has since turned out to be the best thing for me. I took time off from sl to concentrate on my real life and have since found myself to be happier without him than I ever was with him. So I will be coming back to sl soon. I am not sure what I will be doing when I get back but, it will be fun. I hope to see you there.

My night

2009-03-09T23:05:00.000-07:00

Tonight was a good night. I completely stayed out of Gor. Trent and I went dancing at Franks place and then to Dino's 4th dimension. We then ended the night with fishing. It was relaxing and nice.

being a bad fw

2009-03-08T23:48:00.000-07:00

Well it was bound to happen. I somewhat lost it. I was so outragiously bored that I could no longer take it, so I had a slave boy bring me paga. Well my tolerance to alohol is not so good, and downing a bottle didn't help. I can't remeber much of what I did, and those present aren't talking too much about it. I do remeber dancing and screaming for everyone else to dance and screaming for more paga. I did actually sober up due to a small raid. Nothing more sobering than being attacked. In some ways I should be glad who knows what would have happened if they hadn't attacked us. Hell the commander even got a new slave out of the raid.

Confused on playing Ash in Gor

2009-03-07T23:26:00.000-08:00

Here lately I have become very bored and very confused how to play my character in Gor. They aspect of the sim is gone and I am simply not an outlaw. I can't fight and the whole interregation thing is just not my speed. I don't know if I am simply bored with Gor or the role I am in. Honestly though I am not sure what role I would play.

SL Wedding

2009-03-07T20:04:00.000-08:00

I was invited to a wedding today, to some of the people from Argentum. I know a lot of people don't like the whole sl wedding thing. But I kind of do. It's a very sweet sentiment, and a way of truly having the wedding of your dreams without constraint. I would love to have a sl wedding but oh well.

New Plan

2009-03-06T10:54:00.000-08:00

While cleaning the scribery and trying to get some simblance of a life after the burning of our city, I came across a partially burnt scroll. The scroll was about fw and gorean law. Most specifically detailing the couching law. A law I am very aware of but never truly thought of. Basically this rules say a fw basically a fw may do anything sexual she pleases with her fc and kajirae in private. HMMMM, so basically I can act as slutty as I want as long as I don't get caught. Now this sounds fun. I also happen to live in an outlaw city, and any collaring of a city fw would have to go through the magistrate. Sooooo, my new plan, is this, drive him wild, drive him wild drive him wild!

The slow death of women on Gor

2009-03-05T22:36:00.000-08:00

Life as a woman on gor is never easy. It doesn't matter what you do or what you are. In truth gor is pain. It kills the heart. You have to live a cold exsistance in a lot of ways. The men can have as many girls as they want, while we have sit back and watch the men we love be others. The pain is unbelieveable. But yet we are powerless to stop it. The jealousy is unbearable. But as a fw I am left with two choices, leave or stay. Slaves have it worse. They have no choice, they may only silently endure, and if they loose control the would be sold or worse. So all you end up doing is slowly die inside.

Lyn the outlaw scout & Gorean Travels

2009-03-05T17:32:00.000-08:00

I have come to a decision but one I can't help but make. I must fight. I must use my skills to protect Argentum. I have been left witn no other choice but this. As I am a horrible fighter, I must use other skills to protect Argentum. I will use my skills as a writer, explorer and mapmaker. I will even sell the information. Hell I would love some new dresses. It is no more nice fw. This is war, and I have the perfect cover. I will now use my Gorean Travels scrolls to go in and get everything I need. Lady Ash will now have to take a backseat as Lyn the outlaw has to take care of business

Argentum Burned!!!

2009-03-04T23:03:00.000-08:00

Argentum has changed so much lately. First of all, many of the citizens have chosen a secret life of being outlaws. Everyone me seems to be living a double life. Even my beloved fc is taking part. He has actually joined there group and is fighting with them.

I am not at sure what to make of this. Yesterday I was off taking care of business out of town, when the local outlaws went and raided another city. The people they raided in turn snuck out and burned our beautiufl city. My scribery burned and Trentons office is nothing but a shell now.

I am now very confused. I am not sure what to do. I feel so disheartened. Part of me actually wants to become an outlaw. I feel so confused.

free women?

2009-02-27T00:40:00.000-08:00

I am free now, but honestly it's not all I had hoped it to be. Don't get me wrong I am happy that get to travel, write and speak my mind, but it seems to come with a cost. I am now working as a scribe of Argentum. I now seem to be under a pile of paperwork now. Everyday I come to the scribery with a mountain of paper work to do. I truly miss those stolen moments of playing in the fields, between chores. I miss being able to crawl into my Masters lap. I miss him kissing me whereever he pleases. In so many ways I am more of a slave than when I was one

Captured by the Torvis Panthers

2009-02-09T16:24:00.000-08:00

All the women and girls of Argentum please becareful and not be as silly as me. I have recently done a very dumb thing. My FC was captured by the torvis panthers. I didn't think, and grabbed a dagger and went to aide him. Yes I know this was dumb. Yes I know I was wrong.

This was a most bad decision on my part. I was immediately captured. I was dragged into there camp, where I was stripped, caged, whipped, and forced to serve like a kajira. I will admit that I wasn't treated too horrible, but the indignity was very hard to bare. There was also another one of our freewoman engaged with me. She very thankfully got out before me.

My escape was not an easy one. I tried many times with no avail. At one time I was even caught trying to escape, for that I was whipped and placed in a tiny cage overnight. The next day I was brought back to the cage room, where one of our warriors was laying. The huntresses, where dressed as kajirae and their was boy dressed as a Master. I was then chained to a post and left alone with the warrior. Soon after there departure I found a hairpin. I quickly began to work, but was interrupted by a boy. The stupid boy let our warrior out in attempt to fight him, he took that time to escape and giving me time to pick the lock. Once the lock was picked, I found my way to gate and climbed over.

leaving Tyros and moving back to Argentum

2009-02-06T15:55:00.000-08:00

Well things did end well for us in Tyros. The regent, a truly horrible man, and my love had a huge fight. I would love to go into details, but I will be kind. Lets just say Tyros is on my shit list for now and forever. After leaving I was released and my fc contract was reenstated. This was done mainly because I absolutely refuse to call the regent Master, as he is barely a man. We have moved on and are now living in Argentum I am living there as a submissive fw, & scribe.

freebie crazy

2008-12-05T21:47:00.001-08:00

Ok it's official I am completely freebie crazy. I got this new outfit at sweetlarma.

Spying for my Master

2008-12-05T20:28:00.000-08:00

My Master was unfortunately sick tonight and wasn't able to go to the council meeting. But while I was polishing my Masters dishes I realized I could hear the meeting from the newspaper office as, it is right above the council meeting and I was able to listen to the whole meeting for my Master. I must say I have always enjoyed spying.

yes, yes, yes

2008-12-05T16:30:00.000-08:00

I finally got it!!! I have been waiting and waiting. I went to the great serve the chair immediately turned to A!!!! I got it, I finally got it. Oh wait. Now my Master will have an excuse to make do chores. NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

freebies!!!

2008-12-05T13:49:00.000-08:00

Slut~a-licious: a very cute camisk

Herlit: a gorean bed

great serve is giving away the chore hud in there lucky chair, I haven't got it yet, but I keep trying. That chair just hates the letter A.

Moving to Tyros

2008-12-05T12:43:00.001-08:00

Things seem to change contsantly. We have movied on yet again. We have now strangely settled in tyros. Yes the very same tyros I was caught spying in. Once our enemies, we now call it home. My Master runs the newspaper there. So far I am happy here, everyone is nice. My Master has told me to snoop and find information. But I am very afraid, as the Ubar once said that he would he feed me to the varts if he caught spying ever again.

Masked ball in Argentum

2008-08-25T21:28:00.000-07:00

Our new city recently had a masked ball. I was thrilled. I have always had a love affair with the ideas of masked balls, and even thought it is second life I was thrilled to go. I felt like a true princess as my Master spun me around the dance floor. Afterwards the Tatrix called out for a hunt, seventy-five gold masks were hidden around the sim, the winner would recieve 2,000 lindens. My Master loves competitions like this so he went wild. He won. It was a beautiful night, and truel felt pretty, oh so pretty.

Submission 101 homework

2008-08-25T09:02:00.000-07:00

My Master has asked me to go to classes and study so that him. Well the most recent class I went to was Submission 101.

(picture taken by fallon Maertens of Dab photography)

This class was about submission, talking more about the d/s and lifestyle gorean approach to it, the difference between submission in rp gor and lifestyle gor. The teacher SirZarath Excelsior made a very good point about when he asked the question "What ressembles a Disney movie more? Playing a RP game adapted from a series of sci-fi novels as if it were real ........ or a group of people who take genuine submissive and Dominant feelings seriously and interact as real human beings? ¨ They also talked about that in lifestyle slavery it is truely consensual and very much a gift. All in all a very good class.

1. What is it that attracted you to Gor in the first place?I originally heard about gor from a second life book. All it was a little paragraph. But I knew I wanted to try it. I am very naturally submissive and was in love with artwork by artists live Boris Vallejo. I had always been a very people pleasing person, the need to serve and help was always there. When I finally got to gor the kajira were like the courtesans of Europe and geisha of Japan. Something I had always been in love with.

2. Why do you want to be a good kajira? Two reasons really. 1) It is my way of being the ultimate beauty; a way totally expresses love and beauty. 2) It helps me express my need to please, serve and be submissive which strangely makes a stronger person in real life

3. What do you hope to find for yourself in submission? What I already have. A love that I had never felt before and a feeling of being cared for I hadn't known since I was child

Moving to Argentum...Yay!!!

2008-08-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

Soon after my submission my Master got word that the former Tatrix of Tharna was now the Tatrix of Argentum and looking for a Chief Scribe. My Master soon had the position and I am so happy to say we are now living in Argentum. The people are very nice and I am glad to be among friendly folks while I get my slave bearings back

ghosted!!!!

2008-08-16T19:56:00.000-07:00

(picture done by fallen Maertens of DAB photography)

ugh! My first day as a Kajira and I get ghosted!! Soon after I submitted panthers attacked the city. It soon escalated and they ended up killing our Ubar, and then the city counter acted by killing several of theres. This angered them and they then put a kos on the whole city. The got me stepping off the tp point. Luckily later the whole thing was ruled invalid so I back. But at least I got to look like a cute little angel kajira

My Submission Dance

2008-08-15T23:10:00.000-07:00

(picture done by Daron Brandeis of DAB photography)

I could no longer take it. Freedom in so many ways is more binding than slavery ever was. We had all congregated in the town square, old friends were even visiting when I just snapped. Trent led us all to tavern so our guests could have some refreshments that is when it hit me. I could not lie to myself anymore, I was not meant for the life of a free woman. I had always been more happy on my knees.I suddenly felt my gloves literally bind my hands and I couldn't take it. I found myself ripping them off with my teeth. I then without even thinking about it, stepped into the dance pit. I turned to Trent and said "My love I can longer live a lie, my love is deep and my need to serve is strong. I then without any hesitation or thought to what I was doing, brought small hand to my and quickly ripped my veil from my face tossing it to the ground.

I then staring deep into my soon to be Master's eyes slowly hiked up my thick blue skirt and lightly kicked off my shoes. I could feel the eyes of the others upon me, but didn't care.

Then in the distant a local musician began to play his sweet music. What seemed to be on cue, I reached out my arms to my Master pleading him to take me. I turned lightly on my heels, slowly I bent over slide the heavy blue skirt down, letting it drop to the floor. I then turned back to face him and smiled sweetly. He just watched not stirring, he just watched. I stepped away from the rigid bondage my freedom had given me and began to twirl about feeling the glow of the beautiful bondage of slavery wash over me.

I started to swoon and sway to the sound of the distant music. As doing so I could taste my slavery now. I saw my soon to be Master smile at me. With this I felt waves of happiness rush over me. I looked back to him pleadingly. My whole body seemed to be over taken by something I could no longer control. I was now at the point of no return.

I started to slide downward. I soon found myself on the floor. There is no going back now, the world knows what I am, my truth has finally been told. I am La Kajira!!!

As I danced on I quickly become overwhelmed. My heart began to beat faster and faster, my body began to tire and my breathing become very as fear wash my mind. What if he refused me, and with that thought I fell to the floor in desperation.

While laying there helplessly I looked up to the man I hoped to call my Master. Taking a big a breath and gathering courage, I slide up to my knees, locked my small arms above my head and bowed my head. With another breath I said, " I give you all that I am and all that I will be. I beg you make me yours."

My Master stood up and walked over to me and smiled down at me. I looked up at him in tears. While the others watched quietly. My Master ran his fingers through my hair saying "you have given me the greatest gift that any woman can give a man, her complete submission. You have made me prouder then any man can be of someone he loves. This collar will last forever...." He then took the collar form inside his cloak, placing it around my neck closing and locking it in place. "You are now my ash," he smiled. With that he took a knife and ripped of my robes of concealment. "You are now a slave, a kajira, for all to see," he said. With that he grabbed me by the hair and lead me back to his seat. I then curled up into his lap happily.

My life keeps changing

2008-07-18T20:33:00.000-07:00

Since the destruction of Tharna we have moved from place to place. I have seen many new changes. The most dramatic change is that I am now free. Although I admit I am finding this to be very hard on me. The dresses are difficult to wear and I feel the need to kneel often. Trent assures me I will get over it. I have taken great comfort in the library though. I have always enjoyed writing and reading, so I do it often.
We are now settled in the city of Essex and working as scribes. Life has taken a steady and peaceful pace. I do so miss my collar though

Finding a friendship in an expected person

2008-05-01T21:32:00.000-07:00

When I am wrong I admit it, and this is one time I am glad I was. When I first met Fallon I was very jealous and afraid of her in many ways. But I found a true friend in her and have grown to care about her very much. She is the only one I have ever liked the idea of calling my sister. She is simply amazing. She is a model, a friend, and simply a beautiful soul. She is everything a girl could want in a sister and friend. A modeling agency want in a model, and a Master would want in a girl.

Tharna dies and we move on

2008-04-24T22:36:00.000-07:00

It was truly a sad day, but all things come to end. It was unfortunate but Tharna was fully taken over by Port Kar. Our red caste had dwindle down to only two. So we knew there was no hope. My Master not wanting to see his family and fellow scribes in danger, decided it was best we move on. So we left our beautiful city of Tharna and traveled on. I cried alot on our journey, but yet I knew it was for the best.

But we have found a new home. A good and happy home. A friend from ours from Teletus become the administrator of Teslit Landing, and they needing scribes welcomed my Master. We were happy to come her and have found many friends here. The village was not wealthy like our last city of tharna, but it had a definate homey atmosphere to it. I truly felt like I came home.

My Master took the post as headscribe. It took us several days to fix up the scribery. But was well worth it, as it turned out beautifully.

While my Master fixed up the scribery I was ordered to fix up our little house. I believe it turned out nicely and cannot wait to serve my Master and his friends wonderful dinner parties.

His old slave

2008-04-12T00:54:00.000-07:00

his old slave....
jealousy is a bad thing for a slave girl
yet but how can she not feel jealous
how can she not feel left
how can she not feel pushed aside
when her Master eyes shine so happy at the sight of his old slave
when his voice seems to exude joy when he talks to her
how can a girl feel special to such a creature
how can she when the other is a model
how can she when the other seems to know so much more
how can she when they speak so knowingly to each other
oh oh this girls heartbreaks at the sight of his old slave

Tharna's Grand tournament

2008-04-05T21:07:00.000-07:00

Despite Tharna's major troubles, the city felt it best to carry on with business as usual. So in act of almost defiance, our beautiful chose to hold a tourney. Which is a wonderous gladiator type of event. For a slave girl this very exciting. Especially it is one of the few times we are allowed to truely enjoy the event along with the free. The only bad thing is living on our knees as we do, we usually cannot see the event over the walls. But this girl, actually found a way around that for this event. The top of the walls are smooth and thick and were a perfect little perch for this girl. She felt quite grand.

The event turned out to be a grand success. Our beautiful Tatrix, reigned over truely like the queen she is. My Master conducted the main business of it, while a fellow slave girl did the shout outs and kept the score of fighters. This girls Master even took his turn in the ring. This was truely exciting. Oh girl thinks her Master is so sexy with out a shirt

The best part of the match, was that it was one by a Master from her Master's homestone. This girl was so proud and has given a sense of pride to all of Tharna. It was by our own gardener Thunderstrike Demar.

Seija'n Slave

2007-08-14T12:37:00.000-07:00

My new life as a slave thus begun. I actually have to say I enjoyed my slavery. I was treated very well and began to truely love my captors. At times it could be very hard. The life as a slave is never easy.

But there were lots of fun times. Outlaws are truely some of the funnest people to be around. Unfortunately, things went bad in Lydius, and the Seija'n were forced to move on. The entire outlaw band moved to the Isle of Teletus

Gorean Ashlyn is born

2007-07-30T19:24:00.000-07:00

I was born on the planet Gor. But because there were men trying to kill my father and his family, my mother, gave me to an earth man to raise. He took me back to earth with him. Even though I grew up on Earth, I knew about Gor. The man who raised me taught me all about it. Althouth at the time I thought they were just made up stories meant to entertain me. I was truely wrong. When I was 18, I was brought back to Gor by the priest kings. I was taken in by my earth fathers friends. They helped on how to act and filled in my gorean education.

I enjoyed my new gorean friends, but I truely wanted to find birth parents. So I set exploring gor and searching my family. Now I did understand the dangers women face in gor, but you have to live in gor awhile to change your thinking and take heed of the danger. My earth father had talked alot about of Lydius, so that was were I would begin my search.

I walked into Lydius feeling very positive, I walked straight to the castle without fear. I was greated by several men. The tallest and one obviously in charge, approached me first. His name was Victor Lufbery. He began questioning me. I didn't hesitate or guard my words. I must of said something wrong, before I knew it I was grabbed and dragged into kennels and tied up.

I have never felt as much fear as I did at that moment. It was then that I truely understood the dangers of Gor, yet it was too late. Another man aproached me. I would later learn that he was the slaver. Do you submit he asked. What? No! Please! I begged. Do you submit he asked again, this time a little louder and sternly. I began to cry hysterically. Through my tears I asked why. He looked at me calmly and said because you are a woman and we are men and we need slaves. I continued to beg and plead for my release. Enough he yelled. He grabbed a whip and held under chin. You can submit now or I can beat a submission out of you. I looked at him with disbelieve and then quietly I said, I submit. He smiled and said good girl.